Saw "Lost in Time" with Lau Ching Wan and Cheung Pak Chi. Such a simple and moving movie. Once again, Cecilia Cheung proves herself to be a much better actor than entertainer. She depicts the initial life of a survivor flawlessly. Of course I trembled and tried in vain to control myself the first 30 minutes of the movie. I remember my mom telling me all her horror stories after Alan's death. She too didn't know who she was, where she was, why she was doing a certain thing, and what she was just doing. And all the mental lapses at the weirdest possible moment. I don't just weep for Alan. I weep for my family more now.

I wish I had my Lau Ching Wan in real life. Someone who witness my sorrows and supports me with action and thought. Then again, I don't need him now, so why do I want to waste his time. Ah, such conflict with life.